Maria Jose Carvallo

Nine things I thought about my graph

1.

I thought about nothing.

He came to me. I did not like him very much.

He said he wanted to become a circle.

I thought about placing him on a circle. (I really like mandalas.)

2.

I thought about him pointing at my past.

Is that what graphs are supposed to do?

My entire journey is about revisiting my past.

I thought about his colours. (I don’t like them).

3.

I thought about the period of drought.

I thought about how thirsty I was.

I thought about him getting warm.

I thought about the heat and about him becoming lava.

4.

I thought about him and soil layers.

I thought he is getting hot, like in my country.

I thought about how great he looks on green. (Yes, he definitely he needs it).

I thought about green, I thought about water, I thought about rivers.

5.

I thought about what would happen if I make my own projections.

What would happen in the next 40 years?

I thought about stopping this exercise. I felt my anxiety.

He is getting hot, and colder and warmer. Just two colours.

I thought about going for a cup of tea (I did). I came back after a meditation. I thought about-facing my fears.

Then, I thought about breathing.

6.

I thought about not liking him anymore.

7.

I thought about getting artistic. (He agreed with both).

8.

I thought about going back home, and about my contradictions.

9.

I thought about how I miss what is not there anymore.